Recommitting

Just a few weeks ago, I began the TLS Challenge.  So where am I 9 weeks later?  Have I lost a ton of weight?  Have I been exercising regularly?  Am I staying away from carbs, sugar, and eating lots of greens and lean protein?  Have I had to shop for clothes because my old clothes are too big?

In a nutshell......no.

I have barely lost 9 pounds.

My clothes feel the same.

I have not begun exercising.

I am eating greens and lean proteins, but I have strayed from the plan and have had bread, cheese-its, ice-cream, etc.

It is really easy to focus on the bad things I have done.  It would be really easy to just say, forget it, and go back to my old ways.  I have even had thoughts of going back to do Medifast or Weight Watchers.

But what would that do?  Would things be different?

I have always said that I am an emotional eater.  I eat when I am stressed.  I eat when I am depressed.  I eat when I am happy.  I say that I deserve it.  I say who cares.  I say just this once then I will get back on track.

However, that one time turns into a day, then two days, then a week.

I need to stop that cycle.

I know what I need to do, but I keep fighting it.  Why?  Why do I keep fighting it?

I need to exercise.  That is it. End of story.  I. Have. To. Exercise.

I need to be prepared.  That means grocery shopping each weekend, and planning ahead.  Making sure I have meals, snacks, etc. so I am not just getting by.  I know that if I don't eat enough during the day, I make bad choices at night.

I know what I have to do.  Now I need to just do it.  This weekend I will be previewing some exercise videos and trying them out.  I will be scheduling times in my day to do exercising.  I will plan out my meals and snacks for the week, go grocery shopping, and organize my pantry and refrigerator to make things easier.

I am going to do this for good.  This is going to be my life.  I am worth spending time on.  I am worth the effort and planning that it will take to make these changes for life.

I am worth it.