The last few days I have been struggling. Tuesday night, I totally lost it. I ate a big bowl of macaroni and cheese, and I ate one of those red heart shaped box of chocolate (about 9 pieces). Since I am the queen of making excuses, I looked back on what happened Monday.
I ended the Healthy Games challenge and weighed out. I made my 6% loss! Woohoo!
I had two different people tell me that I was looking good. They noticed that I was starting to lose weight!
I know....terrible things.
Actually, I have had worse days. So, why did I scarf down a bowl of mac-n-cheese and the box of chocolates? I could tell you that I did it because just as I finished making the pasta for the kids and started making my on-plan lean and green meal....the power went off. I couldn't use the oven or the microwave, and did not have anything to eat that didn't have to be cooked (which is actually true...grocery shopping tonight!). But that would just be making an excuse.
What I really think happened was that because I had compliments, because I made my goal, I reverted back to old habits. You know the ones.....rewarding yourself with food. I felt good that people are starting to notice. I felt good that I made my goal. But then, I rewarded my good choices with something bad. FOOD
Augh.
But, let's look at the silver lining.
In the past, I would have just made an excuse and keep on making bad choices. I wouldn't really realize that I was rewarding myself with food, I would have just made an excuse as to why I went off plan.
So now I am looking at rewards that I can give myself when I need a reward. No, it is not going to be anything with food...coming up with things can be difficult when you are so programmed to just eat something!
Here is to being honest with myself, and rewarding myself for the good things I am doing! I know it is going to be hard to break that mindset, but I am working on it!
Have a great week everyone!
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