A Drop in the Bucket

Today, I hit a milestone.

20 pounds gone forever!

Yea!  I am excited.  I am proud.  20 pounds is huge!

Except, 20 pounds is just a drop in the bucket.  I need to lose a lot more.

I wish I could say that I am fitting into a new, smaller size....but I'm really not. I am still wearing the same clothes as I wore 20 pounds heavier.   But my clothes are fitting better and are more comfortable.  I don't have to try to stretch a t-shirt to make it bigger...I can just put it on and leave it.

I wish I could tell you that I am feeling fantastic!  But for the past couple of weeks, I have been dealing with depression, stress, and anxiety.  I am not using food as a way to feel better.  I used to just have a bowl of ice cream, or eat something super yummy, and it would help me feel better (at least I thought it was).  Now that I am not going to food, I have to find other ways to "feel better".  I am learning some new things.  Like getting outside more, blogging, focusing on the good things that are happening.  I am looking into some things that I can use instead of food.  I have even tried some meditation and deep breathing exercises.

I know I am a work in progress...it is going to take time.  But until then, I am going to shout from the rooftops.....I LOST 20 POUNDS!  I am celebrating that fact because whether it is a drop in the bucket, or if it was the last 20 pounds before a goal, I did it.   It is not an easy task....it will take time, but I did it!  Here is to the next 20 pounds!

Monday Maddness

Happy Monday!

Mondays are just awful for me.  Not only is it the first day back to work after a weekend, but I have to be in two different places at two different times tonight!  My daughter has dance class, my son has Boy Scouts, and they both overlap.  I end up bringing my daughter to dance, then my son to Scouts, then back to pick up my daughter, then back to pick up my son before we get home.  Before all this, I have to make sure both my kids have had dinner and homework is done.

I am not crazy about Mondays.

Anyway, I thought I would give an update of my progress so far.

I began Take Shape for Life Monday, December 29th.  Today I start week 10.  For the past 9 weeks, I have lost 18.5 pounds.  That is about 2 pounds per week.

Have I been perfect?  Nope.

If I had been perfect, I bet my weightloss would have been bigger.  But, I'm not perfect!

My coach just texted me, asking if I could make a mini-goal for myself.  That mini-goal is to make sure I get all 5 MF meals in every day.  I am making a promise to myself, that I am going to work towards that goal, but I am also going to add to not take any BLTs.  BLTs are Bites, Licks, Tastes.  You know when you are getting some goldfish crackers for the kids, and you just take a few a couple and pop them in your mouth before you hand them over?

Yea, those.

All those little things add up to big things!

I have noticed that I am taking more BLTs than I have in the past, so no more of those!

So, mini-goal this week:  all 5 MF meals, every day, and no BLTS!