A Drop in the Bucket

Today, I hit a milestone.

20 pounds gone forever!

Yea!  I am excited.  I am proud.  20 pounds is huge!

Except, 20 pounds is just a drop in the bucket.  I need to lose a lot more.

I wish I could say that I am fitting into a new, smaller size....but I'm really not. I am still wearing the same clothes as I wore 20 pounds heavier.   But my clothes are fitting better and are more comfortable.  I don't have to try to stretch a t-shirt to make it bigger...I can just put it on and leave it.

I wish I could tell you that I am feeling fantastic!  But for the past couple of weeks, I have been dealing with depression, stress, and anxiety.  I am not using food as a way to feel better.  I used to just have a bowl of ice cream, or eat something super yummy, and it would help me feel better (at least I thought it was).  Now that I am not going to food, I have to find other ways to "feel better".  I am learning some new things.  Like getting outside more, blogging, focusing on the good things that are happening.  I am looking into some things that I can use instead of food.  I have even tried some meditation and deep breathing exercises.

I know I am a work in progress...it is going to take time.  But until then, I am going to shout from the rooftops.....I LOST 20 POUNDS!  I am celebrating that fact because whether it is a drop in the bucket, or if it was the last 20 pounds before a goal, I did it.   It is not an easy task....it will take time, but I did it!  Here is to the next 20 pounds!