Day 1

I did it.

I signed up for Weight Watchers Online last night.

So, today, I started the Simple Start.  This is where they have a number of meal ideas to start with, you pick and choose what you want, and you're done!

I really don't have everything I need (grocery shopping is this weekend), but I do have enough healthy stuff that I can make it work.

I started the day with coffee.  Have to have my coffee!  Then I made a pot of steel cut oatmeal.  I made enough for today, as well as two more meals.  I put those in the fridge for an easy breakfast for two days!

To the oatmeal, I added 1/2 cup of frozen blueberries, cinnamon, and a packet of stevia.  It was really good!  I would also like to chop up some apples and cook those down a little with some cinnamon to add some other time!

For lunch, I am going to make a turkey sandwich, with spinach and mustard.  I don't have lite or thin bread, so I may just use one slice.

I also have some spinach, eggs and a sweet potato, so I may make a spinach omlet with some roasted sweet potatoes. 

I need to make a grocery list, so I can be prepared.  I know if I am not prepared, it doesn't work so well!  I am going to take what I have learned on all the plans I have been on so I can make this work for me!

A Piece of the Puzzle

Finding a plan that works for you is a challenge.  It is almost like trying to put together a 1,000 piece puzzle, but some of the pieces are missing.  Or broken.  Or bent.

It seems like there is not just one thing that will work.

The last few weeks, I have been doing a lot of thinking.  What should I do?  Should I go on a plan?  Should I just count my calories?  Do I eat less carbs?  I am finding I have more questions than answers.

One plan that really worked for me was Medifast.  With Medifast, you eat 5 of their prepackaged "meals" and prepare one meal a day.  The meal is called "Lean and Green".  That meal is just what it is titled, Lean meat/protein and lots of greens (veggies).  It is a low carb plan, and the number one thing I liked, was that your focus was not on the food.  5 meals were ready to go, and there was a number of choices.  They had bars, shakes, soups, eggs, pancakes, etc.  My absolute favorite was the hot chocolate.  I would mix it up and put it in my morning coffee.  Yum!  It was easy...all you had to do was make sure you had those packets, cooked one meal, and BAM!!!  You lost weight.

It was easy....but it was also really hard.  I had to make sure I had those packets.  I couldn't eat what others were eating.  I really had to make sure I stuck to the plan.  Another hard thing was the price tag.  It was about $300 per month.  Now, if I went through my grocery and eating out bills, I would see that I was spending less money at the grocery store and with eating out, so it really wasn't a huge expense, but try telling that to my husband.  Spending that money each month was taking a toll on our financial situation, and that has not improved from the last time I was on Medifast.

I would LOVE to do Medifast again, but unfortunately, it is not going to be an option.

So, here I am, trying to get myself motivated and to get eating healthy.  For the past year, I have done TLS (Transition Lifestyle System), and there are many things I love about it.  I love the focus on whole foods.  Eating veggies, lean protein, fruit, and no sugar and processed foods.  There is a focus on eating healthy foods and exercise. 

But, I have a problem.  I feel like I am being left out, and then I go crazy and eat everything in sight.  I need to find a plan that I can stick to, be motivated to not eat emotionally, and feel like I am not being left out.

Since I am not able to do Medifast, I am going to do Weight Watchers Online.  I have done Weight Watchers a million times.  The most I have lost was 20 pounds.  I was going to meetings, then going out to dinner and eating whatever I wanted.

I know I need to make changes that will be here for my whole life.  I need to be responsible for what I eat, and I need to make sure I am being a positive role model for my kids.

I need to be happy.  Happy with myself, my choices, my life.

I can not always control what happens to me, but I can control how I react to it, and the choices I make.

I am taking control of my eating.  I am taking back control of me.

Making Changes

This is not easy.

It is a life long battle.

A battle I am going to win.

First change has to be my attitude.  I need to remember that I am worth it, and I can do this!  For years I have battled with depression, and sometimes the depression takes over.  I believe that is what happened last week.  I was so depressed, I just fell into it and just ate.

I am feeling more determined this week.  I know I am not perfect, but I am going to make things happen.

I am getting my plan together...I will let you all know more as I find out more!

Why Hello There Rock Bottom!

Yup.  It's official.

I'm here at rock bottom.

I have some clothes that fit...a lot that don't.

I am unhappy. 

I am stressed and miserable.

I am here....at rock bottom, and I need to make some changes.

I am starting by going grocery shopping.  I am going to fill my refrigerator and pantry with good, healthy food.

I am preparing my meals and snacks for the week.  I do not want to find myself in a position to eat something unhealthy because I did not plan for my day.

I want this to happen now, however, I know I didn't put this weight on overnight, and it will not come off overnight.

My negative feelings are getting smaller and smaller as I think more positively and get in more control.  Really, this is all about control, right?  I mean, when I eat whatever I want and just let go, I am out of control and the weight just piles on.  When I am making thoughtful decisions about what I am doing, I feel better in the long run.

This week is all about attitude and control.  I am thinking positive, planning, and making good things happen.

I will do this.