Day 2

Today is my second day on Medifast.  When I weighed in this morning, I was down 2.5 pounds.  I know that's water, but I'll take it!

Yesterday, I was starving.  I had my eye on the clock and could barely wait two hours until my next meal.  Today, I was hungry, but not too bad.  Tomorrow should be even better!

I have noticed a few things these few hours. I can not believe how much mindless eating I have done.  I would walk into the kitchen and grab a bite or a taste of something.  I noticed how much of a habit I have, just going and eating, and not thinking.  Now I am thinking, and there will be no more mindless  eating!

Tomorrow will be a challenge.  It's New Years Eve, and we get together with our neighbors for a party.  The kids all play together and there is lots of food and drinks.  I know it is going to be a challenge, but I plan on bringing some veggies and lots of water!  My 10 year old says it's the best party of the year!  Maybe because they can stay up until midnight!

Anyway, I have to go make my last MF meal.  Good night!

'Twas the night before Medifast

Tomorrow is the big day!  Tomorrow is the day I change my life forever!

I have been planning and organizing, and yes, giving myself time, to prepare for tomorrow.  An I ready?  The a answer is a huge YES!

There is so much information out there.  What to eat, what not to eat, go low carb, no carb, some carb, low sugar, low glycemic, low points.....it can make your head spin!  Mine has been spinning for a long time.

But now I have a plan.

I have made my decision to get healthy and I feel calm.  I don't feel confused or overwhelmed.  I'm excited.  Today is the last day I am going to be this size, this weight.  As of tomorrow, I choose me.  I choose to make decisions that are good for me.  Being selfish is not in my nature, but I need to start being at least a little selfish.  I don't deserve to be fat, overweight, miserable.  I can be happy...and pizza is not the way to get there!

I know this is not going to be easy.  I know I can't do this by myself.  But I also know I am going to do this!

Here is to tomorrow!

Can It Be More Confusing?

For as long as I can remember, my weight has been a struggle.  I have always been watching what I eat, and always trying to lose weight.  Some of the times I have been successful.  Most of the time, I have not.  Right now, I am not.

I had a physical last week.  When the doctor and I sat down and she asked me how I thought my health was, my response was, "Ugh".  My weight is at an all time high, and I am struggling,  After we talked for a few minutes, she recommended two things:  1.  Was going on a no sugar, no white flour, low carb, low processed foods for a while to get my weight down.  2.  She would give me a referral for gastric bypass.

Let's just say I was stunned.  I never saw myself as being big enough for a referral for gastric bypass, and quite honestly, although I would love to have it done and lose weight fast, I am not sure if I want something so invasive.

Then this week, I had my annual exam with my gynocologist.  When I told him what my other doctor recommended, he gave me his opinion.  He told me about this wonderful program about getting healthy, losing weight, etc.  It was Take Shape For Life.  I did that a few years ago, and was very successful, but put back all of the weight, then some when I didn't stick to the plan.  And, it was really expensive, and my family just could not do it.

I am so confused, my head is spinning.  Do I try to get the money for Medifast?  Do I go on a no sugar, no white flour, etc. diet, do I go back to Weight Watchers, do I go back to do Transitions Lifestyle System? Do I look into gastric bypass?

Well, I do know that I need to do something.  The something I need to do has to be something that I can do, and I will have to give it 110%.  There are so many different programs out there.....but I know the one I need to do.

Take Shape for Life.  It is a program that uses Medifast food, but it comes with a coach.  I just knew when I talked to my gynecologist, and he told me about this program, I took it as a message from somewhere. I know it is a great program.  I know it works.  I know I am going to do it.

But I am not going to just "jump right in".  First thing, I needed to find a coach.  The first time I did this program, I had a coach.  She was really nice....I think I talked to her 3 times.  She sent me newsletters, but other than that, she was just a name on a piece of paper.

When I restarted again this past April, I ended up going without a coach.  Once a few months went by, I requested a coach.  They gave me someone.  Again, she seemed really nice, but she was a little over the top.  I just didn't really click with her.

So, I have been on message boards on Facebook, and I have been following this one coach, and she just seems right up my alley!  I sent her a message, she wrote right back and took me on!  Yesterday I ordered my food, and got the email today that it was being shipped (meaning I will probably get it next week!).

Coach...check!
Food...check!

Now, to set myself up for success!  I am in the process of cleaning the pantry, organizing my things.  I will also be making some meals that can be put in the freezer so I will always have something prepared!

As much as I want to start today, I am giving myself a few days to make sure I am ready...and to not feel guilty for Christmas!  But this is NOT a New Year's resolution.  I will be starting on Sunday or Monday, depending on when we come back from visiting my mom.

I don't feel so confused anymore.  I feel that I have a plan.  A plan that I can do, and live with....and it feels good!

Almost to Day 1!

Christmas Eve, I received my "first" box of meals!  I say "first" because I have done this program before.  I was very successful when I first did the program, but then I stopped, and the weight came back on...plus more!  I have done Medifast before (started again last April), but I just wasn't committed.  I took off some months, and was very confused on what I should do.  After some doctor's appointments, I knew I needed to do something that I could stick with and be successful, so I decided to do Take Shape For Life.

So, now I have a plan, I have a health coach, and I have my meals!  I have been organizing the pantry to make sure that I have everything I need, and the things I don't, I got rid of.

I want to start, but I also want to make sure that I will be successful from the start.  Christmas was here, tomorrow we are heading to my mom's for Christmas #2, and we will be back home on Sunday.  I wanted to give myself these last few days to prepare myself, as well as my family.

I am going to need the help and support of my husband and my kids.  My kids are 10 and 7, and they love peanut butter, cereal, pasta, nuggets, etc.  I want them to eat better as well, but I know they are not going to do it overnight!  My husband needs to realize that he can't bring me home ice cream, or desserts from his job!  When we go out to dinner, he can't say, "Hey, let's get an appetizer"  or "you've got to try this _______ (fill in the blank with whatever bit of cheesy, bready, goodness you can think of!)".  I am not going to be able to do this myself, and these last few days I have enlisted their help with organizing the kitchen, cleaning out the freezer and refrigerator, and making grocery shopping lists and meal plans together. Not only am I going to be eating better, my kids are going to as well!

It's Friday night.  The day after Christmas day, and we are getting together with the neighbors for a camp fire.  It seems very weird to be saying that....I do live in Western New York, and it is December!  But it will be fun to have the kids get together and run around like it was summertime!  A cold summer night, but still!

Tomorrow I am off to my moms, then we will be back Sunday.  I will be officially starting Monday.  I wanted to do it this Sunday, but since we will still be at my mom's, I figure one more day will be ok.  Monday it will be!!  I am excited.  I am nervous.  I am READY!!!