Can It Be More Confusing?

For as long as I can remember, my weight has been a struggle.  I have always been watching what I eat, and always trying to lose weight.  Some of the times I have been successful.  Most of the time, I have not.  Right now, I am not.

I had a physical last week.  When the doctor and I sat down and she asked me how I thought my health was, my response was, "Ugh".  My weight is at an all time high, and I am struggling,  After we talked for a few minutes, she recommended two things:  1.  Was going on a no sugar, no white flour, low carb, low processed foods for a while to get my weight down.  2.  She would give me a referral for gastric bypass.

Let's just say I was stunned.  I never saw myself as being big enough for a referral for gastric bypass, and quite honestly, although I would love to have it done and lose weight fast, I am not sure if I want something so invasive.

Then this week, I had my annual exam with my gynocologist.  When I told him what my other doctor recommended, he gave me his opinion.  He told me about this wonderful program about getting healthy, losing weight, etc.  It was Take Shape For Life.  I did that a few years ago, and was very successful, but put back all of the weight, then some when I didn't stick to the plan.  And, it was really expensive, and my family just could not do it.

I am so confused, my head is spinning.  Do I try to get the money for Medifast?  Do I go on a no sugar, no white flour, etc. diet, do I go back to Weight Watchers, do I go back to do Transitions Lifestyle System? Do I look into gastric bypass?

Well, I do know that I need to do something.  The something I need to do has to be something that I can do, and I will have to give it 110%.  There are so many different programs out there.....but I know the one I need to do.

Take Shape for Life.  It is a program that uses Medifast food, but it comes with a coach.  I just knew when I talked to my gynecologist, and he told me about this program, I took it as a message from somewhere. I know it is a great program.  I know it works.  I know I am going to do it.

But I am not going to just "jump right in".  First thing, I needed to find a coach.  The first time I did this program, I had a coach.  She was really nice....I think I talked to her 3 times.  She sent me newsletters, but other than that, she was just a name on a piece of paper.

When I restarted again this past April, I ended up going without a coach.  Once a few months went by, I requested a coach.  They gave me someone.  Again, she seemed really nice, but she was a little over the top.  I just didn't really click with her.

So, I have been on message boards on Facebook, and I have been following this one coach, and she just seems right up my alley!  I sent her a message, she wrote right back and took me on!  Yesterday I ordered my food, and got the email today that it was being shipped (meaning I will probably get it next week!).

Coach...check!
Food...check!

Now, to set myself up for success!  I am in the process of cleaning the pantry, organizing my things.  I will also be making some meals that can be put in the freezer so I will always have something prepared!

As much as I want to start today, I am giving myself a few days to make sure I am ready...and to not feel guilty for Christmas!  But this is NOT a New Year's resolution.  I will be starting on Sunday or Monday, depending on when we come back from visiting my mom.

I don't feel so confused anymore.  I feel that I have a plan.  A plan that I can do, and live with....and it feels good!