The Yo-Yo

For the past few weekends, I have gone somewhat off plan.

Each Monday, I have been up anywhere from 3 to 6 pounds.

Then I get back on plan....lose those 3 to 6 pounds, then the weekend comes.  And what happens?  I got off plan a little, put those pounds back on, then the cycle just repeats.

What. A. Waste. Of. Time.

And MONEY!!!!

Going up and going down.....the scale needs to keep going down.  Not up!

This weekend, I don't see any huge challenges, but since it is the weekend, I need to make sure that I am staying on plan!

UGH....Again!!

Oops, I did it again....

and I don't mean the Brittany Spears song.

My intentions were all good, but I blew it.

I am not going to get into it, but lets just say I had lots of food and drinks off plan since Saturday.  :(

I know this plan works.  I am not losing hope for myself.

Have I lost as much as I wanted to at this point?  No

Have I been following the plan as I should?  No

THEN WHAT DO I EXPECT?????

I need to do the work.  I need to change my eating habits and my attitudes about food!

I can give excuses, but I am not going to.  I am owning up to my mistakes, and I am going to actually learn from them this time.

Need Some Motivation

GRRRRRR.......

Last week was really hard.  I "fell of the wagon" last weekend, and struggled all week to get back on.  Friday, I lost the two pounds I gained.  Then this weekend happened.

I was doing good, until Saturday night.  We had a neighborhood campfire.....I had two drinks and some chocolate and a s'more.

Yesterday, again, doing ok....but then had a HUGE scoop of peanut butter and didn't get all my meals in.

But today is a new day.  My new order comes tomorrow afternoon, so I will have my favorites back.  I am not giving up....well, I am giving up....peanut butter!

I. Can. Not. Have. Peanut. Butter!!  Not one scoop, lick, or taste.

None.

Nada.

So I may be back up again, but not for long.

Have a great, OP, MFing day!

Feeling Better

Yesterday was just plain awful!

I was so depressed and miserable and in a lot of pain (which doesn't help).

The good news is, I am feeling much better.  I am still not back up to my usual self, but I am not so low as yesterday. I am also back on plan.  I had all my MF meals yesterday, as well as my lean and green.  I still need to work on getting in more water (that is always hard for me), but overall, I am good!

The scale is still up one pound.  I recorded it this morning.  Yes, I am up one pound, but it is not the end of the world!  It will go right away.  I will not let this one weekend throw me off the wagon!

I am not sure whats for dinner tonight.  I am thinking some egg whites, veggies and cheese omelet of some sort.

It feels good to be back in control!!

Here is to an on plan week and getting rid of that stinkin' pound...and some of it's friends!

First Mess-Up

Well, today I am totally depressed.

We went out of town this weekend, and to start things off, I forgot my medication.  I have rheumatoid arthritis and depression, an my meds were left on the kitchen counter.  So, Friday night and Saturday I did not have my meds.  Not good.

Then, there is the water factor.  Since we were driving, I did not get all my water in.  Even on Saturday when I should have been able to drink away, I did not drink my water.  That was problem #2.

Finally, food.  I ate pizza Friday night.  Saturday, I was doing pretty good food wise, but then had some scoops of mashed potatoes with dinner. The real kind...not the MF kind.  Sunday I was also on the right track, but then I started getting really down and had more pizza, ice cream and pretzel/chocolate things. That was problem #3.

This morning was my weigh in day.  I am up one pound.  I did not record it down yet...I was too depressed to write a +1 pound on my chart.

So, today, I am back on track.  Already drank a ton of water, on my third MF meal, and blogging to try to fight off my depression.  I am fighting my way back, though.  I am going through the motions to get myself back on track.

I have to do this one minute at a time right now!

Impatient

I have been feeling great!

I have energy.  I feel happy!  I am feeling successful!

But, I want this weight off now!  I want to look like I am losing weight!  I want to see a smaller body in the mirror.  I want to wear smaller clothes.

GRRRRRRR........

O.K.  Temper tantrum is over.  I am telling myself that all those things are happening, just a little at a time.  It is not going to happen overnight.  Maybe in a month, I will see some big changes, but right now, the biggest changes are my feelings, my attitude, and the control I feel now.

I was so out of control.

If anything, I feel like I am making a difference in my health as well as my life.

Focusing on those changes, and the rest will follow.

Slow and steady.  I can do this.  I AM doing this!!