Today is my second day on Medifast. When I weighed in this morning, I was down 2.5 pounds. I know that's water, but I'll take it!
Yesterday, I was starving. I had my eye on the clock and could barely wait two hours until my next meal. Today, I was hungry, but not too bad. Tomorrow should be even better!
I have noticed a few things these few hours. I can not believe how much mindless eating I have done. I would walk into the kitchen and grab a bite or a taste of something. I noticed how much of a habit I have, just going and eating, and not thinking. Now I am thinking, and there will be no more mindless eating!
Tomorrow will be a challenge. It's New Years Eve, and we get together with our neighbors for a party. The kids all play together and there is lots of food and drinks. I know it is going to be a challenge, but I plan on bringing some veggies and lots of water! My 10 year old says it's the best party of the year! Maybe because they can stay up until midnight!
Anyway, I have to go make my last MF meal. Good night!
Tuesday, December 30, 2014
Sunday, December 28, 2014
'Twas the night before Medifast
Tomorrow is the big day! Tomorrow is the day I change my life forever!
I have been planning and organizing, and yes, giving myself time, to prepare for tomorrow. An I ready? The a answer is a huge YES!
There is so much information out there. What to eat, what not to eat, go low carb, no carb, some carb, low sugar, low glycemic, low points.....it can make your head spin! Mine has been spinning for a long time.
But now I have a plan.
I have made my decision to get healthy and I feel calm. I don't feel confused or overwhelmed. I'm excited. Today is the last day I am going to be this size, this weight. As of tomorrow, I choose me. I choose to make decisions that are good for me. Being selfish is not in my nature, but I need to start being at least a little selfish. I don't deserve to be fat, overweight, miserable. I can be happy...and pizza is not the way to get there!
I know this is not going to be easy. I know I can't do this by myself. But I also know I am going to do this!
Here is to tomorrow!
I have been planning and organizing, and yes, giving myself time, to prepare for tomorrow. An I ready? The a answer is a huge YES!
There is so much information out there. What to eat, what not to eat, go low carb, no carb, some carb, low sugar, low glycemic, low points.....it can make your head spin! Mine has been spinning for a long time.
But now I have a plan.
I have made my decision to get healthy and I feel calm. I don't feel confused or overwhelmed. I'm excited. Today is the last day I am going to be this size, this weight. As of tomorrow, I choose me. I choose to make decisions that are good for me. Being selfish is not in my nature, but I need to start being at least a little selfish. I don't deserve to be fat, overweight, miserable. I can be happy...and pizza is not the way to get there!
I know this is not going to be easy. I know I can't do this by myself. But I also know I am going to do this!
Here is to tomorrow!
Friday, December 26, 2014
Can It Be More Confusing?
For as long as I can remember, my weight has been a struggle. I have always been watching what I eat, and always trying to lose weight. Some of the times I have been successful. Most of the time, I have not. Right now, I am not.
I had a physical last week. When the doctor and I sat down and she asked me how I thought my health was, my response was, "Ugh". My weight is at an all time high, and I am struggling, After we talked for a few minutes, she recommended two things: 1. Was going on a no sugar, no white flour, low carb, low processed foods for a while to get my weight down. 2. She would give me a referral for gastric bypass.
Let's just say I was stunned. I never saw myself as being big enough for a referral for gastric bypass, and quite honestly, although I would love to have it done and lose weight fast, I am not sure if I want something so invasive.
Then this week, I had my annual exam with my gynocologist. When I told him what my other doctor recommended, he gave me his opinion. He told me about this wonderful program about getting healthy, losing weight, etc. It was Take Shape For Life. I did that a few years ago, and was very successful, but put back all of the weight, then some when I didn't stick to the plan. And, it was really expensive, and my family just could not do it.
I am so confused, my head is spinning. Do I try to get the money for Medifast? Do I go on a no sugar, no white flour, etc. diet, do I go back to Weight Watchers, do I go back to do Transitions Lifestyle System? Do I look into gastric bypass?
Well, I do know that I need to do something. The something I need to do has to be something that I can do, and I will have to give it 110%. There are so many different programs out there.....but I know the one I need to do.
Take Shape for Life. It is a program that uses Medifast food, but it comes with a coach. I just knew when I talked to my gynecologist, and he told me about this program, I took it as a message from somewhere. I know it is a great program. I know it works. I know I am going to do it.
But I am not going to just "jump right in". First thing, I needed to find a coach. The first time I did this program, I had a coach. She was really nice....I think I talked to her 3 times. She sent me newsletters, but other than that, she was just a name on a piece of paper.
When I restarted again this past April, I ended up going without a coach. Once a few months went by, I requested a coach. They gave me someone. Again, she seemed really nice, but she was a little over the top. I just didn't really click with her.
So, I have been on message boards on Facebook, and I have been following this one coach, and she just seems right up my alley! I sent her a message, she wrote right back and took me on! Yesterday I ordered my food, and got the email today that it was being shipped (meaning I will probably get it next week!).
Coach...check!
Food...check!
Now, to set myself up for success! I am in the process of cleaning the pantry, organizing my things. I will also be making some meals that can be put in the freezer so I will always have something prepared!
As much as I want to start today, I am giving myself a few days to make sure I am ready...and to not feel guilty for Christmas! But this is NOT a New Year's resolution. I will be starting on Sunday or Monday, depending on when we come back from visiting my mom.
I don't feel so confused anymore. I feel that I have a plan. A plan that I can do, and live with....and it feels good!
Well, I do know that I need to do something. The something I need to do has to be something that I can do, and I will have to give it 110%. There are so many different programs out there.....but I know the one I need to do.
Take Shape for Life. It is a program that uses Medifast food, but it comes with a coach. I just knew when I talked to my gynecologist, and he told me about this program, I took it as a message from somewhere. I know it is a great program. I know it works. I know I am going to do it.
But I am not going to just "jump right in". First thing, I needed to find a coach. The first time I did this program, I had a coach. She was really nice....I think I talked to her 3 times. She sent me newsletters, but other than that, she was just a name on a piece of paper.
When I restarted again this past April, I ended up going without a coach. Once a few months went by, I requested a coach. They gave me someone. Again, she seemed really nice, but she was a little over the top. I just didn't really click with her.
So, I have been on message boards on Facebook, and I have been following this one coach, and she just seems right up my alley! I sent her a message, she wrote right back and took me on! Yesterday I ordered my food, and got the email today that it was being shipped (meaning I will probably get it next week!).
Coach...check!
Food...check!
Now, to set myself up for success! I am in the process of cleaning the pantry, organizing my things. I will also be making some meals that can be put in the freezer so I will always have something prepared!
As much as I want to start today, I am giving myself a few days to make sure I am ready...and to not feel guilty for Christmas! But this is NOT a New Year's resolution. I will be starting on Sunday or Monday, depending on when we come back from visiting my mom.
I don't feel so confused anymore. I feel that I have a plan. A plan that I can do, and live with....and it feels good!
Almost to Day 1!
Christmas Eve, I received my "first" box of meals! I say "first" because I have done this program before. I was very successful when I first did the program, but then I stopped, and the weight came back on...plus more! I have done Medifast before (started again last April), but I just wasn't committed. I took off some months, and was very confused on what I should do. After some doctor's appointments, I knew I needed to do something that I could stick with and be successful, so I decided to do Take Shape For Life.
So, now I have a plan, I have a health coach, and I have my meals! I have been organizing the pantry to make sure that I have everything I need, and the things I don't, I got rid of.
I want to start, but I also want to make sure that I will be successful from the start. Christmas was here, tomorrow we are heading to my mom's for Christmas #2, and we will be back home on Sunday. I wanted to give myself these last few days to prepare myself, as well as my family.
I am going to need the help and support of my husband and my kids. My kids are 10 and 7, and they love peanut butter, cereal, pasta, nuggets, etc. I want them to eat better as well, but I know they are not going to do it overnight! My husband needs to realize that he can't bring me home ice cream, or desserts from his job! When we go out to dinner, he can't say, "Hey, let's get an appetizer" or "you've got to try this _______ (fill in the blank with whatever bit of cheesy, bready, goodness you can think of!)". I am not going to be able to do this myself, and these last few days I have enlisted their help with organizing the kitchen, cleaning out the freezer and refrigerator, and making grocery shopping lists and meal plans together. Not only am I going to be eating better, my kids are going to as well!
It's Friday night. The day after Christmas day, and we are getting together with the neighbors for a camp fire. It seems very weird to be saying that....I do live in Western New York, and it is December! But it will be fun to have the kids get together and run around like it was summertime! A cold summer night, but still!
Tomorrow I am off to my moms, then we will be back Sunday. I will be officially starting Monday. I wanted to do it this Sunday, but since we will still be at my mom's, I figure one more day will be ok. Monday it will be!! I am excited. I am nervous. I am READY!!!
So, now I have a plan, I have a health coach, and I have my meals! I have been organizing the pantry to make sure that I have everything I need, and the things I don't, I got rid of.
I want to start, but I also want to make sure that I will be successful from the start. Christmas was here, tomorrow we are heading to my mom's for Christmas #2, and we will be back home on Sunday. I wanted to give myself these last few days to prepare myself, as well as my family.
I am going to need the help and support of my husband and my kids. My kids are 10 and 7, and they love peanut butter, cereal, pasta, nuggets, etc. I want them to eat better as well, but I know they are not going to do it overnight! My husband needs to realize that he can't bring me home ice cream, or desserts from his job! When we go out to dinner, he can't say, "Hey, let's get an appetizer" or "you've got to try this _______ (fill in the blank with whatever bit of cheesy, bready, goodness you can think of!)". I am not going to be able to do this myself, and these last few days I have enlisted their help with organizing the kitchen, cleaning out the freezer and refrigerator, and making grocery shopping lists and meal plans together. Not only am I going to be eating better, my kids are going to as well!
It's Friday night. The day after Christmas day, and we are getting together with the neighbors for a camp fire. It seems very weird to be saying that....I do live in Western New York, and it is December! But it will be fun to have the kids get together and run around like it was summertime! A cold summer night, but still!
Tomorrow I am off to my moms, then we will be back Sunday. I will be officially starting Monday. I wanted to do it this Sunday, but since we will still be at my mom's, I figure one more day will be ok. Monday it will be!! I am excited. I am nervous. I am READY!!!
Monday, June 9, 2014
Back to Basics
When you stay on plan, it works.
You lose weight.
You feel good.
Your clothes start to get bigger.
When you don't stay on plan....eating something you shouldn't, having too many snacks, too many nuts, too many scoops of peanut butter....it all adds up. It makes you gain weight. It slows down weight loss. This isn't rocket science. You do the work, you get results. You don't do the work, or try shortcuts, you don't get the results you want!
That is why I am going back to basics.
I am not adding peanut butter to my brownie. I am not going to have "just a few more cashews". I am not going to have just a small bite.
This plan works, and I need to do the plan.
Wednesday, June 4, 2014
So, I'm Not Perfect
Here I am....into my 7th week of Medifast, and I have lost 13 pounds. The first time I did Medifast, I lost 23 pounds in 7 weeks. It looks like this time I lost about half as much.
But the good news is, is that I lost 13 pounds!
13 pounds that I will never have again!
The first time, I was 100% on plan. This time, not so much. But I forgive myself.
What really matters is that I am on plan right now, for today!
I am not going to compare myself to myself from 2009, because I am a different person than I was in 2009. My kids are not babies anymore, and have a lot going on. I am teaching a different grade level, and I have different challenges.
To say I didn't do as well as last time is just plain stupid! I dealt with challenges differently, made some good choices, some not so good, but I am making good changes.
I know I am not perfect.
I know I am going to make mistakes, but I am not making excuses for my mistakes any longer.
I forgive myself for my mistakes, and I congratulate myself on not giving up.
But the good news is, is that I lost 13 pounds!
13 pounds that I will never have again!
The first time, I was 100% on plan. This time, not so much. But I forgive myself.
What really matters is that I am on plan right now, for today!
I am not going to compare myself to myself from 2009, because I am a different person than I was in 2009. My kids are not babies anymore, and have a lot going on. I am teaching a different grade level, and I have different challenges.
To say I didn't do as well as last time is just plain stupid! I dealt with challenges differently, made some good choices, some not so good, but I am making good changes.
I know I am not perfect.
I know I am going to make mistakes, but I am not making excuses for my mistakes any longer.
I forgive myself for my mistakes, and I congratulate myself on not giving up.
Friday, May 30, 2014
The Yo-Yo
For the past few weekends, I have gone somewhat off plan.
Each Monday, I have been up anywhere from 3 to 6 pounds.
Then I get back on plan....lose those 3 to 6 pounds, then the weekend comes. And what happens? I got off plan a little, put those pounds back on, then the cycle just repeats.
What. A. Waste. Of. Time.
And MONEY!!!!
Going up and going down.....the scale needs to keep going down. Not up!
This weekend, I don't see any huge challenges, but since it is the weekend, I need to make sure that I am staying on plan!
Each Monday, I have been up anywhere from 3 to 6 pounds.
Then I get back on plan....lose those 3 to 6 pounds, then the weekend comes. And what happens? I got off plan a little, put those pounds back on, then the cycle just repeats.
What. A. Waste. Of. Time.
And MONEY!!!!
Going up and going down.....the scale needs to keep going down. Not up!
This weekend, I don't see any huge challenges, but since it is the weekend, I need to make sure that I am staying on plan!
Tuesday, May 27, 2014
UGH....Again!!
Oops, I did it again....
and I don't mean the Brittany Spears song.
My intentions were all good, but I blew it.
I am not going to get into it, but lets just say I had lots of food and drinks off plan since Saturday. :(
I know this plan works. I am not losing hope for myself.
Have I lost as much as I wanted to at this point? No
Have I been following the plan as I should? No
THEN WHAT DO I EXPECT?????
I need to do the work. I need to change my eating habits and my attitudes about food!
I can give excuses, but I am not going to. I am owning up to my mistakes, and I am going to actually learn from them this time.
and I don't mean the Brittany Spears song.
My intentions were all good, but I blew it.
I am not going to get into it, but lets just say I had lots of food and drinks off plan since Saturday. :(
I know this plan works. I am not losing hope for myself.
Have I lost as much as I wanted to at this point? No
Have I been following the plan as I should? No
THEN WHAT DO I EXPECT?????
I need to do the work. I need to change my eating habits and my attitudes about food!
I can give excuses, but I am not going to. I am owning up to my mistakes, and I am going to actually learn from them this time.
Monday, May 19, 2014
Need Some Motivation
GRRRRRR.......
Last week was really hard. I "fell of the wagon" last weekend, and struggled all week to get back on. Friday, I lost the two pounds I gained. Then this weekend happened.
I was doing good, until Saturday night. We had a neighborhood campfire.....I had two drinks and some chocolate and a s'more.
Yesterday, again, doing ok....but then had a HUGE scoop of peanut butter and didn't get all my meals in.
But today is a new day. My new order comes tomorrow afternoon, so I will have my favorites back. I am not giving up....well, I am giving up....peanut butter!
I. Can. Not. Have. Peanut. Butter!! Not one scoop, lick, or taste.
None.
Nada.
So I may be back up again, but not for long.
Have a great, OP, MFing day!
Last week was really hard. I "fell of the wagon" last weekend, and struggled all week to get back on. Friday, I lost the two pounds I gained. Then this weekend happened.
I was doing good, until Saturday night. We had a neighborhood campfire.....I had two drinks and some chocolate and a s'more.
Yesterday, again, doing ok....but then had a HUGE scoop of peanut butter and didn't get all my meals in.
But today is a new day. My new order comes tomorrow afternoon, so I will have my favorites back. I am not giving up....well, I am giving up....peanut butter!
I. Can. Not. Have. Peanut. Butter!! Not one scoop, lick, or taste.
None.
Nada.
So I may be back up again, but not for long.
Have a great, OP, MFing day!
Tuesday, May 13, 2014
Feeling Better
Yesterday was just plain awful!
I was so depressed and miserable and in a lot of pain (which doesn't help).
The good news is, I am feeling much better. I am still not back up to my usual self, but I am not so low as yesterday. I am also back on plan. I had all my MF meals yesterday, as well as my lean and green. I still need to work on getting in more water (that is always hard for me), but overall, I am good!
The scale is still up one pound. I recorded it this morning. Yes, I am up one pound, but it is not the end of the world! It will go right away. I will not let this one weekend throw me off the wagon!
I am not sure whats for dinner tonight. I am thinking some egg whites, veggies and cheese omelet of some sort.
It feels good to be back in control!!
Here is to an on plan week and getting rid of that stinkin' pound...and some of it's friends!
I was so depressed and miserable and in a lot of pain (which doesn't help).
The good news is, I am feeling much better. I am still not back up to my usual self, but I am not so low as yesterday. I am also back on plan. I had all my MF meals yesterday, as well as my lean and green. I still need to work on getting in more water (that is always hard for me), but overall, I am good!
The scale is still up one pound. I recorded it this morning. Yes, I am up one pound, but it is not the end of the world! It will go right away. I will not let this one weekend throw me off the wagon!
I am not sure whats for dinner tonight. I am thinking some egg whites, veggies and cheese omelet of some sort.
It feels good to be back in control!!
Here is to an on plan week and getting rid of that stinkin' pound...and some of it's friends!
Monday, May 12, 2014
First Mess-Up
Well, today I am totally depressed.
We went out of town this weekend, and to start things off, I forgot my medication. I have rheumatoid arthritis and depression, an my meds were left on the kitchen counter. So, Friday night and Saturday I did not have my meds. Not good.
Then, there is the water factor. Since we were driving, I did not get all my water in. Even on Saturday when I should have been able to drink away, I did not drink my water. That was problem #2.
Finally, food. I ate pizza Friday night. Saturday, I was doing pretty good food wise, but then had some scoops of mashed potatoes with dinner. The real kind...not the MF kind. Sunday I was also on the right track, but then I started getting really down and had more pizza, ice cream and pretzel/chocolate things. That was problem #3.
This morning was my weigh in day. I am up one pound. I did not record it down yet...I was too depressed to write a +1 pound on my chart.
So, today, I am back on track. Already drank a ton of water, on my third MF meal, and blogging to try to fight off my depression. I am fighting my way back, though. I am going through the motions to get myself back on track.
I have to do this one minute at a time right now!
We went out of town this weekend, and to start things off, I forgot my medication. I have rheumatoid arthritis and depression, an my meds were left on the kitchen counter. So, Friday night and Saturday I did not have my meds. Not good.
Then, there is the water factor. Since we were driving, I did not get all my water in. Even on Saturday when I should have been able to drink away, I did not drink my water. That was problem #2.
Finally, food. I ate pizza Friday night. Saturday, I was doing pretty good food wise, but then had some scoops of mashed potatoes with dinner. The real kind...not the MF kind. Sunday I was also on the right track, but then I started getting really down and had more pizza, ice cream and pretzel/chocolate things. That was problem #3.
This morning was my weigh in day. I am up one pound. I did not record it down yet...I was too depressed to write a +1 pound on my chart.
So, today, I am back on track. Already drank a ton of water, on my third MF meal, and blogging to try to fight off my depression. I am fighting my way back, though. I am going through the motions to get myself back on track.
I have to do this one minute at a time right now!
Friday, May 2, 2014
Impatient
I have been feeling great!
I have energy. I feel happy! I am feeling successful!
But, I want this weight off now! I want to look like I am losing weight! I want to see a smaller body in the mirror. I want to wear smaller clothes.
GRRRRRRR........
O.K. Temper tantrum is over. I am telling myself that all those things are happening, just a little at a time. It is not going to happen overnight. Maybe in a month, I will see some big changes, but right now, the biggest changes are my feelings, my attitude, and the control I feel now.
I was so out of control.
If anything, I feel like I am making a difference in my health as well as my life.
Focusing on those changes, and the rest will follow.
Slow and steady. I can do this. I AM doing this!!
I have energy. I feel happy! I am feeling successful!
But, I want this weight off now! I want to look like I am losing weight! I want to see a smaller body in the mirror. I want to wear smaller clothes.
GRRRRRRR........
O.K. Temper tantrum is over. I am telling myself that all those things are happening, just a little at a time. It is not going to happen overnight. Maybe in a month, I will see some big changes, but right now, the biggest changes are my feelings, my attitude, and the control I feel now.
I was so out of control.
If anything, I feel like I am making a difference in my health as well as my life.
Focusing on those changes, and the rest will follow.
Slow and steady. I can do this. I AM doing this!!
Wednesday, April 30, 2014
Peanut Butter....I am Breaking Up With You!
Dear Peanut Butter,
My friend, we have had a great run! I would meet you by the pantry with only a spoon. I would scoop up that yummy goodness, and eat it right off the spoon! I could stand there and eat an entire cup of you in one day!
I don't know what it is about you....the creamy texture, the way it coats my tongue, the feeling of bliss I feel when I eat it!
But there is a problem, and well.....its not you.....its me.
I sneak one spoonful, then another, then another. When we go to make a ppj sandwich for my daughter, the jar is empty! Then my daughter is not happy, and we all know, when my daughter is not happy....no one is happy!
Then there is the problem of the scale. Right now it is not making too much of a difference, but if I keep this up, I will be having lots of problems with the scale.
I just can't quit you, peanut butter. So I have to say good bye.
It may not be forever....there may be a time where I can have you in the pantry and not shovel you in, but now, I just can do it.
Thank you peanut butter. Thank you for the time we had together, but for now I say....good bye!!
Love Always,
Me
My friend, we have had a great run! I would meet you by the pantry with only a spoon. I would scoop up that yummy goodness, and eat it right off the spoon! I could stand there and eat an entire cup of you in one day!
I don't know what it is about you....the creamy texture, the way it coats my tongue, the feeling of bliss I feel when I eat it!
But there is a problem, and well.....its not you.....its me.
I sneak one spoonful, then another, then another. When we go to make a ppj sandwich for my daughter, the jar is empty! Then my daughter is not happy, and we all know, when my daughter is not happy....no one is happy!
Then there is the problem of the scale. Right now it is not making too much of a difference, but if I keep this up, I will be having lots of problems with the scale.
I just can't quit you, peanut butter. So I have to say good bye.
It may not be forever....there may be a time where I can have you in the pantry and not shovel you in, but now, I just can do it.
Thank you peanut butter. Thank you for the time we had together, but for now I say....good bye!!
Love Always,
Me
Monday, April 28, 2014
Last Day of Week One
I am very happy to say that I am almost to the end of week one! I am feeling great! Happy even....
I was worried about this weekend. My birthday was Friday, and I didn't want to go overboard. I told my husband, no cake, no ice cream, no drinks, and when we go out for dinner, no apps or deserts!
I did fantastic! We went to the movies with 2 other families, Rio 2, and although I had a large diet coke (which was more like a gallon), I ate my bar and that was it! We went out to dinner, and I had a salad with no croutons and no bread! Yea!
I have been weighing myself. I am down 6 pounds today. I started last Tuesday, but I am making Mondays my weigh in day, so I am saying 6 pounds lost for week one! Yippee!!
Words can not even describe how glad I am that I went back on Medifast. I feel in control, I feel happy, I feel encouraged!
I know I have a long way to go, but for the first time in a very long time, I know I can do it!
I was worried about this weekend. My birthday was Friday, and I didn't want to go overboard. I told my husband, no cake, no ice cream, no drinks, and when we go out for dinner, no apps or deserts!
I did fantastic! We went to the movies with 2 other families, Rio 2, and although I had a large diet coke (which was more like a gallon), I ate my bar and that was it! We went out to dinner, and I had a salad with no croutons and no bread! Yea!
I have been weighing myself. I am down 6 pounds today. I started last Tuesday, but I am making Mondays my weigh in day, so I am saying 6 pounds lost for week one! Yippee!!
Words can not even describe how glad I am that I went back on Medifast. I feel in control, I feel happy, I feel encouraged!
I know I have a long way to go, but for the first time in a very long time, I know I can do it!
Thursday, April 24, 2014
Made it to Day 3
Today is day 3 for me! I have to say the most annoying thing is going to the bathroom so many times a day! I have been getting in at LEAST 64 oz. each day. I know I should have more, but I figure I will start at 64 oz. and go on from there.
I have been doing really good so far! I am hungry....but it feels good to actually be hungry...not just thinking I am hungry.
I have noticed that some of the food has changed since I did Medifast 2 years ago. The brownies are more of a cake, and the chili gets very pasty. Both are still good....it is just different! Today I am going to have the chicken flavored noodle soup for lunch. That was one of my favorites!
I have also tried some new foods that were added since last time. Mashed potatoes....YUM!! The consistency is not quite like instant mashed potatoes, but they were still good! It was nice to have something more savory.
Being able to focus on other things, and not spending a ton of time in the kitchen has been great! I can be prepared for my day in just a few minutes, and I have all I need right in my pantry! Filling my 64 oz. water bottle from the water cooler takes the most time!
Anyway, things are going well! I am so glad I made this choice!
I have been doing really good so far! I am hungry....but it feels good to actually be hungry...not just thinking I am hungry.
I have noticed that some of the food has changed since I did Medifast 2 years ago. The brownies are more of a cake, and the chili gets very pasty. Both are still good....it is just different! Today I am going to have the chicken flavored noodle soup for lunch. That was one of my favorites!
I have also tried some new foods that were added since last time. Mashed potatoes....YUM!! The consistency is not quite like instant mashed potatoes, but they were still good! It was nice to have something more savory.
Being able to focus on other things, and not spending a ton of time in the kitchen has been great! I can be prepared for my day in just a few minutes, and I have all I need right in my pantry! Filling my 64 oz. water bottle from the water cooler takes the most time!
Anyway, things are going well! I am so glad I made this choice!
Monday, April 21, 2014
Day 1 Eve
I can't even tell you how I am feeling right now.
I am excited. I am restless. I am scared. I am READY!!!
Tomorrow I am going back on the Medifast plan. I spent the weekend eating, but also looking back at some of the blog I posted on the MyMedifast site. I realized that I can lose the weight. I can stick to a program. I can do this!
I also spent some time looking at myself. I know....it sounds weird, but I really looked at myself. I have been living in a fantasy world. In my head, I am not this size. In my head, I look good! The mirror tells a different story. I can go on and on about my flaws, but what good is it going to do, except make me feel depressed? I could tell you that my shadow was so huge, I couldn't believe it was me. I could tell you that the rolls on my back are no longer rolls, but droops of fat. I could tell you that my stomach is starting to be larger than my chest. But I'm not.
What I am going to do is forgive myself. I am going to forgive myself for the times I turned to food to make me feel better, or to hide from what I have been feeling. I am going to forgive myself for having to buy a size 20 jeans, and shirts that are a 2x.
I forgive me.
I know this journey is not going to be easy. I know I can not turn to food to solve my problems. Tomorrow is the first step in a live long journey to being and staying healthy.
My order will arrive this afternoon. Tomorrow I am going to start my day with coffee mixed with hot chocolate. Yum!!!
So, good bye fat. Good by negative feelings. I forgive myself, and I have the courage to do this.
Tomorrow is the first day of the rest of my life!
I am excited. I am restless. I am scared. I am READY!!!
Tomorrow I am going back on the Medifast plan. I spent the weekend eating, but also looking back at some of the blog I posted on the MyMedifast site. I realized that I can lose the weight. I can stick to a program. I can do this!
I also spent some time looking at myself. I know....it sounds weird, but I really looked at myself. I have been living in a fantasy world. In my head, I am not this size. In my head, I look good! The mirror tells a different story. I can go on and on about my flaws, but what good is it going to do, except make me feel depressed? I could tell you that my shadow was so huge, I couldn't believe it was me. I could tell you that the rolls on my back are no longer rolls, but droops of fat. I could tell you that my stomach is starting to be larger than my chest. But I'm not.
What I am going to do is forgive myself. I am going to forgive myself for the times I turned to food to make me feel better, or to hide from what I have been feeling. I am going to forgive myself for having to buy a size 20 jeans, and shirts that are a 2x.
I forgive me.
I know this journey is not going to be easy. I know I can not turn to food to solve my problems. Tomorrow is the first step in a live long journey to being and staying healthy.
My order will arrive this afternoon. Tomorrow I am going to start my day with coffee mixed with hot chocolate. Yum!!!
So, good bye fat. Good by negative feelings. I forgive myself, and I have the courage to do this.
Tomorrow is the first day of the rest of my life!
Friday, April 18, 2014
Thoughts....
I am really looking forward to getting my Medifast! I keep checking the tracking, and it is not due to arrive until Monday. That means, I can not start officially until Tuesday. I am using that time delay to make sure I am prepared!
I know that I need to have things on hand that I can make quickly and easily. One of my favorite things when I was on Medifast before was cauliflower crust pizza! I always had that when we ordered pizza! It made me feel like I was having pizza too! The only thing with it is that the protein is 1 c. of mozzarella cheese. I will have it once or twice a week, and use eggs, chicken, and ground turkey for my "lean" for the rest of the week.
I need to get my "pizza" crusts ready this weekend, and put them in the freezer. As we get closer, I will get some lettuce for salads (those are always quick meals!) and browse my favorite medifast sites to get some more ideas to have on hand. I also have a file of recipes that I printed last time I was on this plan.
I am so ready for this!
I know that I need to have things on hand that I can make quickly and easily. One of my favorite things when I was on Medifast before was cauliflower crust pizza! I always had that when we ordered pizza! It made me feel like I was having pizza too! The only thing with it is that the protein is 1 c. of mozzarella cheese. I will have it once or twice a week, and use eggs, chicken, and ground turkey for my "lean" for the rest of the week.
I need to get my "pizza" crusts ready this weekend, and put them in the freezer. As we get closer, I will get some lettuce for salads (those are always quick meals!) and browse my favorite medifast sites to get some more ideas to have on hand. I also have a file of recipes that I printed last time I was on this plan.
I am so ready for this!
Thursday, April 17, 2014
It's Been A While.....and Good News!
I have been away from my blog.
During that time, I attempted to do Weight Watchers. I really do believe it is a good plan, but it is just not working for me.
But, I do have some really exciting news!
I had to scrimp.....I had to save.....I had to promise my husband I will clean and organize my closet and drawers....but I just placed my first order at Medifast!!
I am so excited!
One of my problems has been making sure I am prepared for the day. I need to have my food organized and prepared in order to be successful. If I don't....bad things. Very bad things!
On Medifast, all I will need to do is make sure I have my bars and packets ready to go! Quick and easy! I do have to make one meal...the Lean and Green. But with two kids (husband not home at nights), a Lean and Green is a lot easier to make, and have them have it too!
I feel excited and in control....and I haven't even officially started yet!
One big problem will be next weekend. It's my birthday. But, I am going to give myself the best birthday present ever! Good health! Weight loss!! Yea!!
So, I'm back and ready to make things happen! Have a great week!
During that time, I attempted to do Weight Watchers. I really do believe it is a good plan, but it is just not working for me.
But, I do have some really exciting news!
I had to scrimp.....I had to save.....I had to promise my husband I will clean and organize my closet and drawers....but I just placed my first order at Medifast!!
I am so excited!
One of my problems has been making sure I am prepared for the day. I need to have my food organized and prepared in order to be successful. If I don't....bad things. Very bad things!
On Medifast, all I will need to do is make sure I have my bars and packets ready to go! Quick and easy! I do have to make one meal...the Lean and Green. But with two kids (husband not home at nights), a Lean and Green is a lot easier to make, and have them have it too!
I feel excited and in control....and I haven't even officially started yet!
One big problem will be next weekend. It's my birthday. But, I am going to give myself the best birthday present ever! Good health! Weight loss!! Yea!!
So, I'm back and ready to make things happen! Have a great week!
Thursday, March 13, 2014
Day 1
I did it.
I signed up for Weight Watchers Online last night.
So, today, I started the Simple Start. This is where they have a number of meal ideas to start with, you pick and choose what you want, and you're done!
I really don't have everything I need (grocery shopping is this weekend), but I do have enough healthy stuff that I can make it work.
I started the day with coffee. Have to have my coffee! Then I made a pot of steel cut oatmeal. I made enough for today, as well as two more meals. I put those in the fridge for an easy breakfast for two days!
To the oatmeal, I added 1/2 cup of frozen blueberries, cinnamon, and a packet of stevia. It was really good! I would also like to chop up some apples and cook those down a little with some cinnamon to add some other time!
For lunch, I am going to make a turkey sandwich, with spinach and mustard. I don't have lite or thin bread, so I may just use one slice.
I also have some spinach, eggs and a sweet potato, so I may make a spinach omlet with some roasted sweet potatoes.
I need to make a grocery list, so I can be prepared. I know if I am not prepared, it doesn't work so well! I am going to take what I have learned on all the plans I have been on so I can make this work for me!
I signed up for Weight Watchers Online last night.
So, today, I started the Simple Start. This is where they have a number of meal ideas to start with, you pick and choose what you want, and you're done!
I really don't have everything I need (grocery shopping is this weekend), but I do have enough healthy stuff that I can make it work.
I started the day with coffee. Have to have my coffee! Then I made a pot of steel cut oatmeal. I made enough for today, as well as two more meals. I put those in the fridge for an easy breakfast for two days!
To the oatmeal, I added 1/2 cup of frozen blueberries, cinnamon, and a packet of stevia. It was really good! I would also like to chop up some apples and cook those down a little with some cinnamon to add some other time!
For lunch, I am going to make a turkey sandwich, with spinach and mustard. I don't have lite or thin bread, so I may just use one slice.
I also have some spinach, eggs and a sweet potato, so I may make a spinach omlet with some roasted sweet potatoes.
I need to make a grocery list, so I can be prepared. I know if I am not prepared, it doesn't work so well! I am going to take what I have learned on all the plans I have been on so I can make this work for me!
Wednesday, March 12, 2014
A Piece of the Puzzle
Finding a plan that works for you is a challenge. It is almost like trying to put together a 1,000 piece puzzle, but some of the pieces are missing. Or broken. Or bent.
It seems like there is not just one thing that will work.
The last few weeks, I have been doing a lot of thinking. What should I do? Should I go on a plan? Should I just count my calories? Do I eat less carbs? I am finding I have more questions than answers.
One plan that really worked for me was Medifast. With Medifast, you eat 5 of their prepackaged "meals" and prepare one meal a day. The meal is called "Lean and Green". That meal is just what it is titled, Lean meat/protein and lots of greens (veggies). It is a low carb plan, and the number one thing I liked, was that your focus was not on the food. 5 meals were ready to go, and there was a number of choices. They had bars, shakes, soups, eggs, pancakes, etc. My absolute favorite was the hot chocolate. I would mix it up and put it in my morning coffee. Yum! It was easy...all you had to do was make sure you had those packets, cooked one meal, and BAM!!! You lost weight.
It was easy....but it was also really hard. I had to make sure I had those packets. I couldn't eat what others were eating. I really had to make sure I stuck to the plan. Another hard thing was the price tag. It was about $300 per month. Now, if I went through my grocery and eating out bills, I would see that I was spending less money at the grocery store and with eating out, so it really wasn't a huge expense, but try telling that to my husband. Spending that money each month was taking a toll on our financial situation, and that has not improved from the last time I was on Medifast.
I would LOVE to do Medifast again, but unfortunately, it is not going to be an option.
So, here I am, trying to get myself motivated and to get eating healthy. For the past year, I have done TLS (Transition Lifestyle System), and there are many things I love about it. I love the focus on whole foods. Eating veggies, lean protein, fruit, and no sugar and processed foods. There is a focus on eating healthy foods and exercise.
But, I have a problem. I feel like I am being left out, and then I go crazy and eat everything in sight. I need to find a plan that I can stick to, be motivated to not eat emotionally, and feel like I am not being left out.
Since I am not able to do Medifast, I am going to do Weight Watchers Online. I have done Weight Watchers a million times. The most I have lost was 20 pounds. I was going to meetings, then going out to dinner and eating whatever I wanted.
I know I need to make changes that will be here for my whole life. I need to be responsible for what I eat, and I need to make sure I am being a positive role model for my kids.
I need to be happy. Happy with myself, my choices, my life.
I can not always control what happens to me, but I can control how I react to it, and the choices I make.
I am taking control of my eating. I am taking back control of me.
It seems like there is not just one thing that will work.
The last few weeks, I have been doing a lot of thinking. What should I do? Should I go on a plan? Should I just count my calories? Do I eat less carbs? I am finding I have more questions than answers.
One plan that really worked for me was Medifast. With Medifast, you eat 5 of their prepackaged "meals" and prepare one meal a day. The meal is called "Lean and Green". That meal is just what it is titled, Lean meat/protein and lots of greens (veggies). It is a low carb plan, and the number one thing I liked, was that your focus was not on the food. 5 meals were ready to go, and there was a number of choices. They had bars, shakes, soups, eggs, pancakes, etc. My absolute favorite was the hot chocolate. I would mix it up and put it in my morning coffee. Yum! It was easy...all you had to do was make sure you had those packets, cooked one meal, and BAM!!! You lost weight.
It was easy....but it was also really hard. I had to make sure I had those packets. I couldn't eat what others were eating. I really had to make sure I stuck to the plan. Another hard thing was the price tag. It was about $300 per month. Now, if I went through my grocery and eating out bills, I would see that I was spending less money at the grocery store and with eating out, so it really wasn't a huge expense, but try telling that to my husband. Spending that money each month was taking a toll on our financial situation, and that has not improved from the last time I was on Medifast.
I would LOVE to do Medifast again, but unfortunately, it is not going to be an option.
So, here I am, trying to get myself motivated and to get eating healthy. For the past year, I have done TLS (Transition Lifestyle System), and there are many things I love about it. I love the focus on whole foods. Eating veggies, lean protein, fruit, and no sugar and processed foods. There is a focus on eating healthy foods and exercise.
But, I have a problem. I feel like I am being left out, and then I go crazy and eat everything in sight. I need to find a plan that I can stick to, be motivated to not eat emotionally, and feel like I am not being left out.
Since I am not able to do Medifast, I am going to do Weight Watchers Online. I have done Weight Watchers a million times. The most I have lost was 20 pounds. I was going to meetings, then going out to dinner and eating whatever I wanted.
I know I need to make changes that will be here for my whole life. I need to be responsible for what I eat, and I need to make sure I am being a positive role model for my kids.
I need to be happy. Happy with myself, my choices, my life.
I can not always control what happens to me, but I can control how I react to it, and the choices I make.
I am taking control of my eating. I am taking back control of me.
Tuesday, March 4, 2014
Making Changes
This is not easy.
It is a life long battle.
A battle I am going to win.
First change has to be my attitude. I need to remember that I am worth it, and I can do this! For years I have battled with depression, and sometimes the depression takes over. I believe that is what happened last week. I was so depressed, I just fell into it and just ate.
I am feeling more determined this week. I know I am not perfect, but I am going to make things happen.
I am getting my plan together...I will let you all know more as I find out more!
It is a life long battle.
A battle I am going to win.
First change has to be my attitude. I need to remember that I am worth it, and I can do this! For years I have battled with depression, and sometimes the depression takes over. I believe that is what happened last week. I was so depressed, I just fell into it and just ate.
I am feeling more determined this week. I know I am not perfect, but I am going to make things happen.
I am getting my plan together...I will let you all know more as I find out more!
Sunday, March 2, 2014
Why Hello There Rock Bottom!
Yup. It's official.
I'm here at rock bottom.
I have some clothes that fit...a lot that don't.
I am unhappy.
I am stressed and miserable.
I am here....at rock bottom, and I need to make some changes.
I am starting by going grocery shopping. I am going to fill my refrigerator and pantry with good, healthy food.
I am preparing my meals and snacks for the week. I do not want to find myself in a position to eat something unhealthy because I did not plan for my day.
I want this to happen now, however, I know I didn't put this weight on overnight, and it will not come off overnight.
My negative feelings are getting smaller and smaller as I think more positively and get in more control. Really, this is all about control, right? I mean, when I eat whatever I want and just let go, I am out of control and the weight just piles on. When I am making thoughtful decisions about what I am doing, I feel better in the long run.
This week is all about attitude and control. I am thinking positive, planning, and making good things happen.
I will do this.
I'm here at rock bottom.
I have some clothes that fit...a lot that don't.
I am unhappy.
I am stressed and miserable.
I am here....at rock bottom, and I need to make some changes.
I am starting by going grocery shopping. I am going to fill my refrigerator and pantry with good, healthy food.
I am preparing my meals and snacks for the week. I do not want to find myself in a position to eat something unhealthy because I did not plan for my day.
I want this to happen now, however, I know I didn't put this weight on overnight, and it will not come off overnight.
My negative feelings are getting smaller and smaller as I think more positively and get in more control. Really, this is all about control, right? I mean, when I eat whatever I want and just let go, I am out of control and the weight just piles on. When I am making thoughtful decisions about what I am doing, I feel better in the long run.
This week is all about attitude and control. I am thinking positive, planning, and making good things happen.
I will do this.
Tuesday, February 25, 2014
What am I Doing??
What am I doing....really?
I have been eating anything I want. I keep getting fatter and fatter. I am so discouraged. I am disgusted with myself. When am I going to get thinner? What is it going to take for me to lose this weight? Why do I keep doing this to myself.
I am done with the excuses, so I am not going to give into reasons why I am doing what I am doing. Here is what I want.
I. Want. To. Feel. Normal.
I want to be able to walk past a mirror and not look away in disgust.
I want to feel comfortable in my clothes.
I want to wear clothes that are not from the Woman's section, or clothes that are a 2X.
I want to be happy.
I want to be happy and feel good about myself.
It's nice to want things, right? Wanting things is not going to make things happen. Wishing for things is not going to make things happen.
Right now, I am not feeling good, or even ok, with myself.
I don't know what to do. Do I change plans? Do I stick with what I am doing now? Do I go ask my doctor about gastric bypass surgery? Do I join a gym? Do I just go buy bigger clothes?
I don't know.
Hopefully I will figure it out soon.
I have been eating anything I want. I keep getting fatter and fatter. I am so discouraged. I am disgusted with myself. When am I going to get thinner? What is it going to take for me to lose this weight? Why do I keep doing this to myself.
I am done with the excuses, so I am not going to give into reasons why I am doing what I am doing. Here is what I want.
I. Want. To. Feel. Normal.
I want to be able to walk past a mirror and not look away in disgust.
I want to feel comfortable in my clothes.
I want to wear clothes that are not from the Woman's section, or clothes that are a 2X.
I want to be happy.
I want to be happy and feel good about myself.
It's nice to want things, right? Wanting things is not going to make things happen. Wishing for things is not going to make things happen.
Right now, I am not feeling good, or even ok, with myself.
I don't know what to do. Do I change plans? Do I stick with what I am doing now? Do I go ask my doctor about gastric bypass surgery? Do I join a gym? Do I just go buy bigger clothes?
I don't know.
Hopefully I will figure it out soon.
Wednesday, February 12, 2014
Excuses, Excuses
Each Tuesday night for the past few weeks, I have been watching a show on TLC called my 600 Pound Life. It goes through a year in the life of 600 pound people who have gastric bypass surgery because it is their last hope. These people are very obese and have a very difficult time living.
Each week, I see them struggle. I see them make excuses. I see them eating things they shouldn't. But the thing that scares me the most, is that I see myself in them.
I do not weigh 600 pounds, but I am obese. I do have a lot of weight to lose. What I do see is that I am making excuses like they are. I can see them going to the drive through. I hear them say it is hard to eat the good stuff because there are no healthy choices when traveling, working, etc. I hear them say that they followed the plan and it is not working.
The plan is not the problem. The plan will not work if you do not follow it and make excuses each time.
I have said that a million times. I have said I am following the plan, working hard, and nothing is happening. It is not working.
It is not the plan that is the problem.
It's me.
I am the one making excuses. I am the one deciding what to eat. No one else can. I look at others and think, "Well, no wonder it worked for them...they don't have [ insert reason here]." I can find a reason for anything....they don't have kids, their husband is home at night, they don't have to do this or that.
But really, what is the reason? The true reason is that they did not make excuses for themselves.
They just did it.
I need to just do it already. Food is not all it is cracked up to be. The answer to happiness is not what I am eating. My whole life, I made food into what it is. I made it make me happy. I made it be more that fuel to run my body. I made it my friend, my reward for doing something, my excuse for anything.
It is time for me to wake up and stop making excuses.
Each week, I see them struggle. I see them make excuses. I see them eating things they shouldn't. But the thing that scares me the most, is that I see myself in them.
I do not weigh 600 pounds, but I am obese. I do have a lot of weight to lose. What I do see is that I am making excuses like they are. I can see them going to the drive through. I hear them say it is hard to eat the good stuff because there are no healthy choices when traveling, working, etc. I hear them say that they followed the plan and it is not working.
The plan is not the problem. The plan will not work if you do not follow it and make excuses each time.
I have said that a million times. I have said I am following the plan, working hard, and nothing is happening. It is not working.
It is not the plan that is the problem.
It's me.
I am the one making excuses. I am the one deciding what to eat. No one else can. I look at others and think, "Well, no wonder it worked for them...they don't have [ insert reason here]." I can find a reason for anything....they don't have kids, their husband is home at night, they don't have to do this or that.
But really, what is the reason? The true reason is that they did not make excuses for themselves.
They just did it.
I need to just do it already. Food is not all it is cracked up to be. The answer to happiness is not what I am eating. My whole life, I made food into what it is. I made it make me happy. I made it be more that fuel to run my body. I made it my friend, my reward for doing something, my excuse for anything.
It is time for me to wake up and stop making excuses.
Monday, February 10, 2014
STRESS!!!!
Last week was hard.
Really hard.
I had so much going on, it was crazy. Absolutely crazy.
With the stress, my healthy eating went out the window. I did my shakes for breakfast almost every day, but I did not hesitate to eat the carbs last week. I am talking bagels, ice cream, pizza, chocolate. You name it, I ate it!
I am not proud. I am not happy with it, but I am refusing to let it continue. I know I am an emotional eater. I eat to help me feel better. I really don't want to eat that way, but it is going to be a long journey to change those habits.
I am trying to make better choices. I will get there, one day at a time. Today I am taking it minute by minute.
I will get there.
Really hard.
I had so much going on, it was crazy. Absolutely crazy.
With the stress, my healthy eating went out the window. I did my shakes for breakfast almost every day, but I did not hesitate to eat the carbs last week. I am talking bagels, ice cream, pizza, chocolate. You name it, I ate it!
I am not proud. I am not happy with it, but I am refusing to let it continue. I know I am an emotional eater. I eat to help me feel better. I really don't want to eat that way, but it is going to be a long journey to change those habits.
I am trying to make better choices. I will get there, one day at a time. Today I am taking it minute by minute.
I will get there.
Wednesday, January 29, 2014
It's Working!
Since I started January 6th, I have lost 7 pounds. I am very happy to say that my weight has been going down each day! So, why is it going down? What makes this time different?
Well, I do have to say, that the pressure of having to go and "weigh in" is gone. Sometimes I felt that if I ate something unhealthy, I would just give up because it was going to be bad anyway. I know it is just a number. I know my health coach was not judging me. I was giving myself an excuse to just give up.
I have been planning my meals, and making sure I have what I need to eat. I ran out of extend bars, which is slight problem, but I have been doing ok. I have been alternating lunches with ff greek yogurt, raspberries, and almonds, with a big salad. This way, I have something that is quick to put together, and I can make sure I will stay on plan.
Another thing that is huge, is that I have been making it my own. I am not keeping carbs out of my diet totally. If I go out to eat and I have a roll, I am not going to say, forget it and eat a bunch of crap as well. It is all about finding balance. Making this work for me, so I can change my eating habits and make this a lifelong healthy lifestyle.
Well, I do have to say, that the pressure of having to go and "weigh in" is gone. Sometimes I felt that if I ate something unhealthy, I would just give up because it was going to be bad anyway. I know it is just a number. I know my health coach was not judging me. I was giving myself an excuse to just give up.
I have been planning my meals, and making sure I have what I need to eat. I ran out of extend bars, which is slight problem, but I have been doing ok. I have been alternating lunches with ff greek yogurt, raspberries, and almonds, with a big salad. This way, I have something that is quick to put together, and I can make sure I will stay on plan.
Another thing that is huge, is that I have been making it my own. I am not keeping carbs out of my diet totally. If I go out to eat and I have a roll, I am not going to say, forget it and eat a bunch of crap as well. It is all about finding balance. Making this work for me, so I can change my eating habits and make this a lifelong healthy lifestyle.
Wednesday, January 22, 2014
The Good, The Bad and The Ugly
First off, the ugly....
I weighed myself this past Monday. Up 3 pounds. Yuck!
The bad......
I went off the wagon. Friday, I stuck to having a delicious salad, but I ate the 2 small breadsticks that came with it. If it stopped there, it would be ok. But did it stop there? No. I then went on to eat 2 small slices of pizza. Ugh.
Then came Saturday. The day was fine, but when we went out to dinner, I nibbled on some french fries. Then I ate 1 1/2 buffalo chicken bite. Then I ate a roll.
Sunday.......had a salad again, ate the crutons AND the breadsticks. Then ate a few donut holes. After that, I had a bowl of ice cream and a handful of crackers.
And somewhere in there, I ate my son's hollow milk chocolate Santa.
Augh is right! And I paid the price for it when I got on the scale. Up three pounds.
But, now for the good.....
Monday I downloaded the Couch to 5K app to my phone. I even did the first workout on my elliptical! Today I do the second one. What I like about it is that it is gradual...I started off with 5 minutes warm up, then 1 minute of jogging, then 1 1/2 minutes of walking. It ended up being a total of 30 minutes. And it is only 3 times per week. I can do three times a week!! Tonight is workout #2, so we will see how it goes.
So, the last few days lots of things happened. The important thing is that I am making good choices and not letting some bad times take over!!!
Progress, not perfection!
I weighed myself this past Monday. Up 3 pounds. Yuck!
The bad......
I went off the wagon. Friday, I stuck to having a delicious salad, but I ate the 2 small breadsticks that came with it. If it stopped there, it would be ok. But did it stop there? No. I then went on to eat 2 small slices of pizza. Ugh.
Then came Saturday. The day was fine, but when we went out to dinner, I nibbled on some french fries. Then I ate 1 1/2 buffalo chicken bite. Then I ate a roll.
Sunday.......had a salad again, ate the crutons AND the breadsticks. Then ate a few donut holes. After that, I had a bowl of ice cream and a handful of crackers.
And somewhere in there, I ate my son's hollow milk chocolate Santa.
Augh is right! And I paid the price for it when I got on the scale. Up three pounds.
But, now for the good.....
Monday I downloaded the Couch to 5K app to my phone. I even did the first workout on my elliptical! Today I do the second one. What I like about it is that it is gradual...I started off with 5 minutes warm up, then 1 minute of jogging, then 1 1/2 minutes of walking. It ended up being a total of 30 minutes. And it is only 3 times per week. I can do three times a week!! Tonight is workout #2, so we will see how it goes.
So, the last few days lots of things happened. The important thing is that I am making good choices and not letting some bad times take over!!!
Progress, not perfection!
Friday, January 17, 2014
That Annoying Voice In Your Head
Yesterday I had an all day meeting. There I was, sitting at a table with other coworkers, listening to someone speak, and what is in the room? Candy. On the table, right in front of me. And not just any candy....chocolate! Plain chocolate nuggets, chocolate with almonds, peppermint patties......yum! Not only that, but right next to the door as you walk in was breakfast pizza. The yummy pizza with scrambled eggs, cheese, ham on half, bacon on the other. Delicious!
But is it healthy?? No way!
I drank my coffee, snacked on my almonds and a cheese stick, went to lunch and had a salad, and when I went back for the afternoon.....I caved in! I had three pieces of chocolate.
Is it the end of the world? No. My health coach would have said, "what was going on at that time?" Well, I had been looking at that candy all morning, and I just wanted one piece. It was that talk that goes on in my head that says to me, "One piece is fine. It won't hurt!" So I have one. That one leads to two, then to three.
But then, I talked back to that annoying voice. I thought, those pieces of chocolate is not helping me reach my goal of being healthy. I know sugar and carbs are not the best for me, so I really need to stay away from it.
That annoying voice tries to convince me to make choices that are not good for me.
I need to change that voice from trying to get me to to negative things, to saying things like "You don't need that. You deserve to do something good for your body. You are worth making healthy choices!"
Having to change those voices, or those recordings in your head is really hard. For years I have been putting myself down, telling myself that I do not care, I'll just start back up tomorrow. This time, things are going to be different. I am going to make healthy changes for me that goes beyond what I eat. I need to change those voices to encourage myself when I feel down.
I did have an idea. I saw a 5 year, one line a day journal in the book store yesterday. Wouldn't that be a great way to remind myself to say something positive about myself each day? I don't need a journal....a blank calendar would also work. I don't have those right now, so I am going to start right now. Here is my positive thought for the day:
"I deserve to be happy and healthy! I am a good person and I am worth it!!"
On that note....have a super day. And say something positive about you today!
But is it healthy?? No way!
I drank my coffee, snacked on my almonds and a cheese stick, went to lunch and had a salad, and when I went back for the afternoon.....I caved in! I had three pieces of chocolate.
Is it the end of the world? No. My health coach would have said, "what was going on at that time?" Well, I had been looking at that candy all morning, and I just wanted one piece. It was that talk that goes on in my head that says to me, "One piece is fine. It won't hurt!" So I have one. That one leads to two, then to three.
But then, I talked back to that annoying voice. I thought, those pieces of chocolate is not helping me reach my goal of being healthy. I know sugar and carbs are not the best for me, so I really need to stay away from it.
That annoying voice tries to convince me to make choices that are not good for me.
I need to change that voice from trying to get me to to negative things, to saying things like "You don't need that. You deserve to do something good for your body. You are worth making healthy choices!"
Having to change those voices, or those recordings in your head is really hard. For years I have been putting myself down, telling myself that I do not care, I'll just start back up tomorrow. This time, things are going to be different. I am going to make healthy changes for me that goes beyond what I eat. I need to change those voices to encourage myself when I feel down.
I did have an idea. I saw a 5 year, one line a day journal in the book store yesterday. Wouldn't that be a great way to remind myself to say something positive about myself each day? I don't need a journal....a blank calendar would also work. I don't have those right now, so I am going to start right now. Here is my positive thought for the day:
"I deserve to be happy and healthy! I am a good person and I am worth it!!"
On that note....have a super day. And say something positive about you today!
Tuesday, January 14, 2014
Turkey Chili Saves the Day!
I know that if I am not prepared with my food, I will fall off the wagon.
Each night, I fill up my water bottles, and pack up my lunch and snacks so all I have to do in the morning is grab it and go. Last night, I did not do it.
And this morning, I woke up late.
And my son was supposed to be dropped off at school early.
Oops.
Thank goodness I made that turkey chili on Sunday! Last night I had some for dinner. I added some 75% reduced fat cheddar cheese, a few dashes of Red Hot, and I made some cauliflower "rice". Have you ever use cauliflower to make a rice? If you haven't, you should! I'll get to the cauliflower at another time. It deserves its own post!!
I still have a ton of it in the fridge. So I quickly grabbed a container, threw in a scoop of turkey chili, added some cheese and some hot sauce......done! Lunch was good to go!
For a snack, I added in a small package of natural almonds and a cheese stick. I knew I still had an apple at work, so I just grabbed an Extend bar for the afternoon on the way home from work.
I wasn't prepared, but in a way I was! I had things that were easy to grab, even if I was running late!
Tonight I am going to make sure I have everything done ahead of time. I do not want to get in the habit of waiting until the morning to get ready for the day!
Today, I am feeling good. I have been eating healthy, and I haven't felt like I was missing out on anything. I am still craving some chocolate right after lunch, so I ate my apple and drank some water. That craving was satisfied!
Not sure what dinner is going to be tonight. I think I am going to have a big salad with some hard boiled eggs. Yum!
Time to go. Have a super day!
Each night, I fill up my water bottles, and pack up my lunch and snacks so all I have to do in the morning is grab it and go. Last night, I did not do it.
And this morning, I woke up late.
And my son was supposed to be dropped off at school early.
Oops.
Thank goodness I made that turkey chili on Sunday! Last night I had some for dinner. I added some 75% reduced fat cheddar cheese, a few dashes of Red Hot, and I made some cauliflower "rice". Have you ever use cauliflower to make a rice? If you haven't, you should! I'll get to the cauliflower at another time. It deserves its own post!!
I still have a ton of it in the fridge. So I quickly grabbed a container, threw in a scoop of turkey chili, added some cheese and some hot sauce......done! Lunch was good to go!
For a snack, I added in a small package of natural almonds and a cheese stick. I knew I still had an apple at work, so I just grabbed an Extend bar for the afternoon on the way home from work.
I wasn't prepared, but in a way I was! I had things that were easy to grab, even if I was running late!
Tonight I am going to make sure I have everything done ahead of time. I do not want to get in the habit of waiting until the morning to get ready for the day!
Today, I am feeling good. I have been eating healthy, and I haven't felt like I was missing out on anything. I am still craving some chocolate right after lunch, so I ate my apple and drank some water. That craving was satisfied!
Not sure what dinner is going to be tonight. I think I am going to have a big salad with some hard boiled eggs. Yum!
Time to go. Have a super day!
Monday, January 13, 2014
Sad Weekend
I haven't blogged in a few days. This weekend was just awful. Saturday we said good bye to our 18 year old kitty.
Friday, my husband called me at work. He had come home from running errands to find our cat unable to walk. I left right away, and got home as fast as I could. He was right. She could barely walk, and when she did, it was awful to watch.
She was 18 years old. She was our baby. Saturday, I took her to the vet, and was with her when she passed. It was so sad, and I am still very sad.
Friday night, I ordered a pizza for dinner. I ordered a chef salad without croutons. I forgot it came with some garlic bread sticks. I ate them both. They were not that big, and I shouldn't have eaten them, but I did. But that was the only time I ate something I shouldn't have.
The thoughts of just forgetting my healthy eating and having a few slices of pizza did cross my mind. So did having a slice of the ice cream cake I sliced off for my daughter. I know that I am an emotional eater, and I turn to food to help me feel better. Instead, I had a mug of sleepy time tea.
The rest of the weekend went ok. I ate healthy, and I even made a turkey chili for the crock pot!
This morning when I weighed myself, I was down 5.5 pounds. Yea!!! I am glad my eating healthy is working, and that I still lost that much when I only did detox for a couple days!
For now, I have to go. I need my mid-morning snack! There is an apple calling my name! Have a great day!
Friday, my husband called me at work. He had come home from running errands to find our cat unable to walk. I left right away, and got home as fast as I could. He was right. She could barely walk, and when she did, it was awful to watch.
She was 18 years old. She was our baby. Saturday, I took her to the vet, and was with her when she passed. It was so sad, and I am still very sad.
Friday night, I ordered a pizza for dinner. I ordered a chef salad without croutons. I forgot it came with some garlic bread sticks. I ate them both. They were not that big, and I shouldn't have eaten them, but I did. But that was the only time I ate something I shouldn't have.
The thoughts of just forgetting my healthy eating and having a few slices of pizza did cross my mind. So did having a slice of the ice cream cake I sliced off for my daughter. I know that I am an emotional eater, and I turn to food to help me feel better. Instead, I had a mug of sleepy time tea.
The rest of the weekend went ok. I ate healthy, and I even made a turkey chili for the crock pot!
This morning when I weighed myself, I was down 5.5 pounds. Yea!!! I am glad my eating healthy is working, and that I still lost that much when I only did detox for a couple days!
For now, I have to go. I need my mid-morning snack! There is an apple calling my name! Have a great day!
Thursday, January 9, 2014
About Day 2 and 3.....and on Day 4!
Day 2 was challenging. We ended up not working because of the Polar Vortex, and I was home all day. Not a good place to be when I have been eating everything and anything for the past few weeks! But I made it through with veggie soup, apples and my spinach and blueberry "smoothie". And I was very hungry all day and had a headache!
Day 3 started with fruit salad at a meeting, then some carrots and other veggies. When it was lunch time, I just could not eat the vegetable soup I had made. I am not sure why, but the thought of eating it was just making me sick! I had a huge apple and snacked on some roasted edamame in the afternoon. My head was killing me and I was starving.
I made a decision to stop detox. Yes, I am a loser, and I couldn't do it!
I have done 7 days before, and I know I can do it, but this time, I was really struggling. I know the benefits of detox are great, but I just want to get into eating healthy! So, last night, my family and I went to a diner, and I ate protein. I had a greek omlet with peppers and onions and feta cheese. I also had a side of bacon (not the best choice). When we got home, I did have a tablespoon of natural peanut butter and some raisins.
So, here I am on day 4 and I am not doing detox.
This morning I started with a vanilla TLS shake with a cup of blueberries. I also added 2 scoops of complete greens to my shake so that I get in more greens!
For lunch, I have a mixed greens salad with 2 hardboiled eggs, 1 oz. 75% reduced fat cheese, some sea salt and pepper slivered almonds. I added some lite balsamic vinegrette. Delicious! I also have some carrots with hummus for a snack this afternoon.
I am glad I stopped detox. I was not happy, and I want to be happy and healthy. I also want my kids to see me eating real food. I want us all to be eating the same things. I want them to know that eating healthy is a lifestyle.....not a diet!
Day 3 started with fruit salad at a meeting, then some carrots and other veggies. When it was lunch time, I just could not eat the vegetable soup I had made. I am not sure why, but the thought of eating it was just making me sick! I had a huge apple and snacked on some roasted edamame in the afternoon. My head was killing me and I was starving.
I made a decision to stop detox. Yes, I am a loser, and I couldn't do it!
I have done 7 days before, and I know I can do it, but this time, I was really struggling. I know the benefits of detox are great, but I just want to get into eating healthy! So, last night, my family and I went to a diner, and I ate protein. I had a greek omlet with peppers and onions and feta cheese. I also had a side of bacon (not the best choice). When we got home, I did have a tablespoon of natural peanut butter and some raisins.
So, here I am on day 4 and I am not doing detox.
This morning I started with a vanilla TLS shake with a cup of blueberries. I also added 2 scoops of complete greens to my shake so that I get in more greens!
For lunch, I have a mixed greens salad with 2 hardboiled eggs, 1 oz. 75% reduced fat cheese, some sea salt and pepper slivered almonds. I added some lite balsamic vinegrette. Delicious! I also have some carrots with hummus for a snack this afternoon.
I am glad I stopped detox. I was not happy, and I want to be happy and healthy. I also want my kids to see me eating real food. I want us all to be eating the same things. I want them to know that eating healthy is a lifestyle.....not a diet!
Monday, January 6, 2014
Day 1 of Detox
So far, things have been ok. I started the morning with some hot lemon water. What I did was take 5 lemons (they were on sale) and juiced them. Once they were all juices, I put the juice through a strainer to get out the seeds, then put the juice in an ice cube tray. So, each morning I just pop out a lemon juice ice cube, put it in a mug, and add hot water! The ice cools the water down enough so it is not too hot, and I spend less time in the morning getting it ready!
Once I was ready to head out, I make a blender full of baby spinach with 1 1/2 cup of blueberries. I then poured it into two bottles. This way I had one in the car, and one during my first break at work. It really was pretty good! I was concerned that the second one would get gross (or grosser depending on how you look at it....I am convincing myself that it is delicious!), but it didn't.
Yesterday, I made that HUGE batch of veggie soup, and I brought a large container of it for lunch. Again, it is pretty good, but I think I will add some hot sauce to it next time. I brought a lot, because I do not want to be starving! I want to make sure that I feel full, and I am doing ok so far!
I also have an apple for later this afternoon. It looks so good, and I can't wait to have it!
So, I am not starving, I am drinking lots of water, and eating lots of veggies. I can do this!!!
Once I was ready to head out, I make a blender full of baby spinach with 1 1/2 cup of blueberries. I then poured it into two bottles. This way I had one in the car, and one during my first break at work. It really was pretty good! I was concerned that the second one would get gross (or grosser depending on how you look at it....I am convincing myself that it is delicious!), but it didn't.
Yesterday, I made that HUGE batch of veggie soup, and I brought a large container of it for lunch. Again, it is pretty good, but I think I will add some hot sauce to it next time. I brought a lot, because I do not want to be starving! I want to make sure that I feel full, and I am doing ok so far!
I also have an apple for later this afternoon. It looks so good, and I can't wait to have it!
So, I am not starving, I am drinking lots of water, and eating lots of veggies. I can do this!!!
Sunday, January 5, 2014
Goodbye, Diet Coke and Hello Detox!
Tomorrow I start detox. Detox is for 7 days, and I will eat lots of vegetables, some fruit, and LOTS of water! Today I make a HUGE pot of vegetable soup. Here is a pic of the veggies I used:
I am not going to lie....detox can be hard. But I know it is going to be well worth it. I was listening to a TLS person explain what detox is like. Think about changing the oil in your car. If you put in the good oil, that's great, but if all the bad stuff is still in your car, it's not going to work right. Detox is like cleaning out the oil, yucky oil in your car, so that the new, good oil can help your car run better! But instead of your car, it's your body....and it's not oil, but healthy foods.
So, this week, I am planning on starting the day with some warm lemon water. I will then take my supplements, and prepare a blueberry/spinach "smoothie". That "smothie" is not really a smoothie. It will be a cup of frozen blueberries, lots of baby spinach, and some water in the blender. I will take one to eat on the way to work, and another for a snack during the day. I am also bringing an apple, a bag of veggies (carrots, sliced peppers, grape tomatoes) and a small container of balsamic vinegar to dip them in. I will also be bringing a container of the veggie soup I made as well as a HUGE container of water.
Water is going to be a problem. It usually is for me. I know I don't drink enough. Part of the reason is that when I drink a lot of water, I have to go to the bathroom every 15 minutes. Really, I am not exaggerating. 15 minutes. When you are a teacher and responsible for 25 students, it is hard to run to the bathroom every 15 minutes! I am still going to try to get my entire large container of water done throughout the day, so that I will be done before I go home. I know I am going to have to use the bathroom a lot, so I am going to talk to my neighbors near my classroom, to see if we can work something out.
Anyway, tomorrow is the start of my transition to a healthy lifestyle. Every Sunday, I am going to list my plans so that I am prepared for the week. This week is easy:
Monday - Sunday: Vegetables, 3 servings of fruit, tons of water each day.
Next Sunday, I should have some more interesting meal plans! This week, it is just going to be to be sure that I have all the food and water I need and to be prepared!!
Now I have to go and get my vegetable soup into containers for lunch this week!
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